I am scared that I might actually be wasting away my youth.
Settling for things, when I can do better. Accepting a fate that I’m capable of changing.
Refusing to think happy thoughts and toying with my health.
I am scared that I am relying on a degree I hope to get from a failed educational system.
I am afraid that I will leave the university, as an individual who knows nothing outside the scope of the courses I’ve crammed hard to pass.
I am afraid that I might become a simple minded adult who doesn’t know at least, a bit about a lot of broad topics.
Not being able to contribute when my mates discuss sensitive issues. Being the clueless one, all the time.
I am scared that I might really be drifting in this world. No vision. No purpose. No direction.
Not making any effort to better myself. Refusing to improve my skill set. Laying down on my back and doing absolutely nothing.
I am afraid that I might become the one who is hard to love, the one whose lover has to constantly ask himself if I’m worth holding on to.
Refusing to express how I feel. Holding on to the past. Refusing to have a share of the happiness that I deserve.
I am scared that I might become a parent who will want to live the parts of my life I can’t get back through my children.
Beating them for every slight mistake. Refusing to let them see the world for themselves. Teaching them to fear, not love me.
I am afraid that in my attempt to be strong, I will push away the ones who love me and walk far further into this dark tunnel which end, I cannot see.
Shutting everyone out. Constantly putting myself down. Refusing to see the me that he sees.
I am scared that one day, I will give up and get tired of feeling my way through this darkness.
I am scared, you know.
Perfect. You are absolutely right and being scared isn’t always a bad thing, you should know. You read a lot!!
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Thank you very much for taking time to read this. I appreciate it. 😀
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So emosh. ):
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It’s meant to be like that. Thank you!
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Good stuff debby…it prompts self evaluation..
Thank you for this
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You’re welcome, Dammy. I’m glad you liked it.
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I think this is the most heart warming post of yours that I’v seen,, and from personal experience, I can confidently say, that it’s OK to be scared but only on the condition that we use that to reshape ourselves to be at least a better version of who we are… Cool one @thatgirldorian ❤❤❤
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That is not untrue, Lou. Thanks for taking time to comment. Thank you! 😘
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Wow!! Don’t be too scared.. U can work on few of them.. But for getting a degree from a failed educational system.. I must confess am scared too.. Dhebbie I love your flows
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Are we all scared of a thing or another?
Thank you so much, Ifeanyi. 😀😊😊
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This is the most heart warming post of yours that I’v seen… Cool one @thatgirldorian
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I’m glad you could relate. Thank you, Lou
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wao…dat is fantastic,
sure,everyone is scare of smth
but the strong one live to conquere.
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Exactly. Thanks for reading!
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I felt like it was meant for me. Giving me a rethink time. Thank you Dhebbie
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You’re welcome, Dani El. Thanks for commenting.
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I am scared too… Its the dark part of youth… Part of living… How we conquer it shapes tomorrow. Thanks Dorian… Felt this.
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I know, right?
Thanks for commenting, Caleb.
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We’re all scared. Apparently fear is part of the process. Loved this piece. Simply written and very beautiful.
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Awwh. I’m glad you loved. Thank you so much for commenting, Ayeesha. 😘😘
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So scared too of pushing away loved ones with the darkness of my past that still lurks around me.
This is perfect! And gave me a lot to ponder on
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Thank you, Debs. Glad you liked it.
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Cool write. Iconic
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Thank you.
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Lovely read.It’s fine to be scared,just as long as you do something about it.I’m 21 and still find myself asking some of this questions(less often though since I am a scatterbrain) about existence.
Keep writing,your blog is a fine literary haven!
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Hehe. I get the whole scatterbrain concept well.
Thank you for taking time to write all these.
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We all get scared, at times
We all ask questions
We all grapple with life and the reality of our frailty
If anything unites us at all, it is this
We all are human. ❤️
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This was beautiful.
Thank you. 💕
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I couldn’t stop thinking about Avicii’s Wake me Up while reading this.
Have you ever at some point come back to this and have to ask yourself how far you’ve come since that time?
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Hey Nay,
Thank you for reading this.
And yes, I have. Some fears have been assuaged, but others will probably stick around for a while more, I think.
It’s only normal.
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